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Dear diary....

How could he do this to me? He left me without saying a word.
Right now, I'm on my bed. No, slash that. I'm on Ludwig's bed.
Where he should be, comforting me.

And I don't understand why he had to leave. He could at least have said "Auf Wiedersehen".
Does he even love me anymore? It's been an entire week. And I haven't seen his face...

If Ludwig was here, he'd tell me to keep smiling. He loves my smile, my happiness....

But Ludwig.... his very presence is what makes me happy. If he's not with me, I can't see a reason to smile. When he left, all the happiness was sucked out of me like a vacuum.

And even worse.... this is the second time he's left me... the second time!

That painful goodbye.... when Ludwig was the Holy Roman Empire. That hurt me like a bullet through my chest...

I had gone into a deep state of depression for the longest time.

That was, until I met him again....
....when he found me in the tomato box.

I found that he reminded me of Holy Roman Empire.... so I was always smiling when I was around him.~

We went through so many painful battles during the second world war.... those memories, I prefer to hide in the back of my mind. Throughout each battle, I was worried that I would lose Ludwig...

....and now..... I've lost him again...

I'm trapped in an endless nightmare, only it's real. This is a real nightmare, that I will never wake up from.

Darkness surrounds me every second.
The world I once knew is slowly disappearing.
And I can't do anything about it....

~Feliciano Vargas
((This is Feliciano's diary. Please comment. ^^ Model in preview image by Nachi Akira.))

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GoreyHannah2gud Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2012
*hugs you* aww don't worry. I'm Lud will come back! If he's not, I'm gonna call his bruder to get over to you!
PunkRose1 Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
I read this on ff too :D
Italy--Feliciano Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
((Yay! ^^ Thank you! >u< ))
PunkRose1 Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Welcome~ :D
JamesKnightingale Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
O%u03A0O *to germany*Why you leave small italian???
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ShadowinEX Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Where did he go?
Italy--Feliciano Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
I-I don't know..... *sobs*
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